Anticipation

Before I begin, I just want to say to my friend Dana (who recently became a mom of twin boys) that I have stolen this song off of your blog. I love it, and I think it does sum up how I feel right now about my family as we get ready to welcome our newest blessing.

We are less than three weeks now from becoming a family of five. I can hardly stand it any more. The anticipation of meeting our little girl and having Brian home is so exciting for me and the boys. "The Boys". For the past nearly six years, they have been "the boys" and I don't think that will change. They are not "my kids". They are always, "My boys." To me, a mother receives a special gift when you give birth to a boy. I can't do their hair or dress them in cute little dresses, but my boys have taught me more in their lifetime than I ever thought possible. Watching their bond as brothers throughout the years has been the most rewarding part of having them. They truly are best friends. Is it something we did as parents? Is it their personalities? I don't know what makes them click, but one would be lost without the other. Sure, they fight. Feelings do get hurt. They even have differing opinions over many things. But....they are brothers who look out for one another, feel each other's hurts and worries, and share a bond that I hope continues throughout their lifetime.

That brings me to the next part of this post....A Little Girl. I can tell you that I have never envisioned our lives without a little girl. I remember a facebook post I did back in the fall. It was a list of 20 interesting things about me. One of the things I wrote was..."I long for a little girl to join our family". Well, we are so close now, and she will make our family complete. I don't know why I have always wanted a girl, but I have. I just can't imagine not having one. She is already a lucky little girl to have two older brothers to protect and look out for her. She will most certainly have them wrapped quite quickly I'm sure. I can remember shopping for prom dresses and my wedding dress with my mom. I still talk to my mom almost every day. I know the bond between a mother and daughter is different than what I have with my boys, but I am just so happy to be able to have both. And...the bond is already there. I think it was there from the moment the radiology tech told me us was a girl.

I have watched Brian with both boys, from birth until now, and he is an incredible father to them. Although his job takes him away a lot, Patrick and Matthew never doubt his love for them. They never think they are being cheated. I think it is because he does such a good job with them when he is here. The anticipation is building to see him with a little girl now. I don't think he really realizes what he is in for. After all, he has boys, and that is all he has known.

So...I am ready. The C-section is scheduled for September 3rd in the morning. Brian is due to arrive home the night of the 2nd pretty late. We're just lucky that his instructors in Hawaii have allowed him to come home early. Please keep us all in your thoughts and prayers... that we all will be safely together on the 3rd, and the surgery goes smoothly with the arrival of a healthy baby girl.